Wow, Jia! I thought I was reading about myself. That is me in a nutshell. We have this very active moral compass. I used to try and loosen up a bit, but it’s just not me.
Not sure if it’s the authentic me or the me that was drummed into my head from a young age. Like you, I don’t think I would want to change it either, but sometimes I am envious of the go-with- the- flow people. Everything seems so easy for them. 💕
Do you ever feel like you're just acting like a good person because everyone believes you're good? It's not that you want to be a bad person, but sometimes you want to tell people to fk off, but you don't say anything because people have this image of you in their heads that you are good, and if you make a mistake even once, they'll think you were acting all along and weren't genuine.
this is an amazing piece and I want to say, as a person who has been both you and the people you talk about, I deeply resonate with what you wrote. I can bounce between the extremes of self betrayal via too much restriction or too much freedom. It’s a delicate balance to learn. Thank you for writing this
Wow, Jia! I thought I was reading about myself. That is me in a nutshell. We have this very active moral compass. I used to try and loosen up a bit, but it’s just not me.
Not sure if it’s the authentic me or the me that was drummed into my head from a young age. Like you, I don’t think I would want to change it either, but sometimes I am envious of the go-with- the- flow people. Everything seems so easy for them. 💕
Do you ever feel like you're just acting like a good person because everyone believes you're good? It's not that you want to be a bad person, but sometimes you want to tell people to fk off, but you don't say anything because people have this image of you in their heads that you are good, and if you make a mistake even once, they'll think you were acting all along and weren't genuine.
Heyy, you said exactly what I was trying to say but couldn’t put into words.
Wow. Beautifully written. I related to this way too much 😂—Appreciate all your beautiful pieces!
this is an amazing piece and I want to say, as a person who has been both you and the people you talk about, I deeply resonate with what you wrote. I can bounce between the extremes of self betrayal via too much restriction or too much freedom. It’s a delicate balance to learn. Thank you for writing this